I am really contemplating about traveling alone after my term ends which is end march.I think traveling alone will be a great way to self reflect,and also to spend some time alone,having no itinerary and doing anything which I want.Not emo though,just that I am lazy to ask anyone to travel with me and not all will want go the place which I want to visit.So,traveling alone may not be a bad idea.Phuket or bangkok will be my preferred destination as lazing under the sun,enjoying the sea breeze and getting the bronze tan is my best enjoyment.And also,I seriously need a quiet time.But too bad,all my good buddies either no money,or can't make up their mind fast,and while the ticket is still super cheap now,I shall think about and make a decision soon.

However if any want to join me,pm me ok.HAAH.I am so excited just to think about it!

I said before.I want to go somewhere,where no one knows me,which then I will be what I am.Its not escaping,its just a reflection before I go army.I just wanna do something I've never done before,and not regreting,because I have many,many regrets already.

The worst will be over soon,less than 2 months.

I must be fucking good to survive this. :)

Buttons on my phone are worn thin
I don't think that I knew the
chaos I was getting in.
But I've broken all my promises to you,
I've broken all my promises to you.

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe.
Why do you do this to me?
Me.

A phrasing that's a single tear,
Is harder than I ever feared
And you were left feeling so alone.
Because these days aren't easy
Like they have been once before
These days aren't easy anymore.

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?
To me, to me, to me.

I should have known this wasn't real
And fought it off and fought to feel
What matters most? Everything
That you feel while listening to
every word that I sing.
I promise you I will bring you home
I will bring you home.

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?
To me, to me, to me.


I'm hope-less.

But AnQing will be back later,which means our gang will be united,even for a few months,its good enough.

had a relaxing weekend cause I had fri,sat and sun off.did so many different things with different friends and i must say:IT FEELS GREAT NOT TO WORK.i want back my schooling days!!!! :(

anw.something damn damn damn damn damn terrible happened yesterday.and i thought everything bad which can happen to me had already happened and been a passe,i was wrong.this must be the worst.oh god,i just dont fucking get it why bad things always happened to me.and i really felt bad to drag someone into it.i've already prepared for the worst,and i will really accept any responsibility.that sums up my life:A Mess.i must have did many many terrible evil things before to get myself into trouble each time.

A failure I deemed myself to be, Success is what I hoped to accomplished,however no matter what I do, how I encouraged myself, there seems to be stumbling blocks somewhere,somehow which I cannot elude. Its so frustrating to think that whenever I did something well, there will be 1 thing which will put me back into the red zone again.It always happened, no doubt. What more can I do to motivate myself now?It wont be long before everyone finds out what I have done and then I will be the no. 1 enemy.

I am ready to be tenacious.I have the urge and drive to correct the inapt image after today.

As I walked home with aches and sores earlier,I recalled my determination during my Os.'Where was that?' I thought.And then I realised,it is down to myself.

I can't just do it,I need to get it done well.I can do it well if I want to.I am going to overcome the odds.Bless me,anyone.

A trip will be nice.

Somehow I have this desire to travel alone,by myself and experiencing life my own.

How nice,where no one knows you,and where you can really be yourself...

Caught in a game which no one can back out.And it states that the creator can change the rules as and when.

Apparently,the game looks entertaining.Not,when it seems like the whole game is being manipulate.

When everyone thought that a game involves luck and strategy,it seems like this particular game revolves around the creator.In other words,the creator makes the outcome.

Too late it seems to back out from the game.An unfair game,speaking of it,what's fair?

What now?Play it by the rules then,play with the creator then.Enjoy the game to please the creator,even if the game sucks to the core.

Because it must not be Game Over.

Finish the game well.Complete it.Try to beat the odds if you are the dark horse.You choose the game,and you complete the game.At the very least,you don't let yourself down and you know after this challenging game,other games may be a brisk for you.

I can do it.

been 2 days since im online,either i fell asleep while oning com,or i came home too lazy and tired to on.

i can't believe i caught HSM yesterday.can't imagine myself watching a musical.BUT well,it was a rather nice show,cause 2 pretty faces in zac effron and vanessa hudgen made it worthwhile. ;)))

offday for me and i'm off to JB!alrighty,updates later if i'm online.